误会

人说好奇心能杀死一只猫，我却说误会能杀死一只蜜蜂。

话说一晚我躺在床上赶着功课，殊不知哪里闯进一只蜜蜂，好死不死的就停在我的床上。一个不留神，大腿就这样辗过了那只蜜蜂，而它也奋起发动了临死前最后的攻击，往我的大腿部位蜇了一下，然后就这样结束了自己的生命。

到现在我还是不明白，为什么它们会选择了如此自杀式的攻击？明知道这样做会丢了自个儿的性命，还是这么的不顾一切？这天然的自卫系统就这么根深蒂固的刻在它们的骨子里吗？就算再想八百年，我也不会理解它们的想法。或许对它们来说，这就是它们的宿命，永远也改变不了。

只不过是为了一个小小的误会，就像当初的卡利达组织袭击了美国的贸易中心和五角大楼，一夕间造成了多少人天人永隔。为了死了以后什么也不是的尊严弄丢了自己的性命，惹恼了大家引起公愤，甚至还引发了世界性的倒戈，到头来还要被世人唾弃。难道他们就真的这么士可杀不可辱吗？误会就这么可怕，为什么都不能退一步海阔天空呢？

这又让我想起了江山美人里的阿虎哥，只觉得他是个愚蠢的可怜虫，守护了多年的可人儿移情别恋，全都因为使命使然不能坦白，还要不吭声的成全他俩。最后爱人跑了，造成国家叛变，还落得为自己的国家所不容，得孤军奋战、单枪匹马地面对数千大军。如果他从一开始就将一切的误会解释清楚，故事的结局是否就会从此改写呢？

英雄是否被人们定义为可悲的、白痴的？明知不可为而为之？因为他的悲惨遭遇，而造就了英雄特性。或许人们说起英雄都会竖起大拇指赞声好，但他们自己就如哑子吃黄连，在华丽的英雄光环下，受了多少苦，需要牺牲多少，更连累了周遭的人。对于他们的想法，我永远不敢苟同，可能我天生不够格当英雄吧，因为至少我不能忍受自己和身边的人受委屈。

好久好久没有被动物弄伤的时候了。不知道是不是心理作用，从一开始的疼痛难受，到现在那伤口还是酸酸的。也没有药可以用，只能等它自然的愈合。真的好想教会那只蜜蜂一句话，留得青山在，哪怕没柴烧。或许在做最坏的决定前，把一切都弄清楚，对我们大家都有好处，至少它不用弄丢性命，而我也不需有这难受的伤口。

P/S：原本只想写一点，哪知道又啰里八唆了一堆，不喜欢看华语的朋友也将就一点先读着吧。

不曾实现的誓言

马不停蹄的忙了这些天，实在忍不住了。
为什么会这样，明明答应过自己不再插手，发誓不再过问，可是一看到他们彷徨无助的样子，又始终于心不忍。

问题到底在哪里，是我让他们太依赖了吗？只要有我在，什么事情都能简化，任何难题都能迎刃而解？
没钱？有行走式的银行提款机。程序上出了差错？想办法走漏洞兜回去。甚至被责备了，也会有人帮忙扛着。有这么好的照明灯，你还担心什么，天塌下来都能当被盖。
这想法好像天真了些，我也不知道该感到自豪还是可悲，天知道我费了多大的功夫，牺牲了多少才把事情都搞定。可是为什么他们就能这么理所当然?

一次又一次的为他们找借口，一直都安慰自己说他们都尽了力，而把苦差事都揽上身，可我在奔波的时候他们都在做些什么？跟朋友喝茶打屁、为自己的事而忙碌？他们就真的能这么不负责任？每一次结束以后也一再提醒自己这将是最后一次了，是时候该让他们长大，但就好像一个周而复始的轮回，只有我不停地在原地踏步。

难道他们就不能试着自己应付一切吗？有人告诉我说抱怨再多也于事无补，倒不如真正的放手一次让他们跌个够。船到桥头自然直，想当初我也是一点一滴从零开始，还没人肯帮忙，可还不是都熬过来了。就因为不想他们走回我曾走过的冤枉路，到头来反而是自己成了冤大头。

或许我真的觉得累了，想当初的目标都那么的遥不可及，一直以来的努力和牺牲都像是付诸东流了。
真希望完全脱离这一切的日子不会太远，已经没有办法也想不到任何理由继续撑下去，所以祝他们好运，下一个倒霉鬼出现的日子不需要等太久。

Devil's Diary II

I have kept the draft of this post for ages,it was due to some technical errors that I had to retype the whole thing,thought that I will never be able to finish it. This is just part of the outdated devil’s diaries. So if you have no interest bout it, u could have just skipped this then. ^^


Thursday (6th of March)
My day started with morning alarm at 8 o’clock. And I was going to sit for freaking hard and crazy test at 11 later. One whole stack of notes waved and greet me morning, waiting for me to finish them before the test. And what kind of insane questions the wicked lecturer came out with. The ideas of flunking another paper just freaked me out. Ouch!!

After the test, I’m totally exhausted and drained. Each and every single nerves and muscles of mine were demanding some rest. But still I have one full day of class. Since I’m an audio basis learner I just couldn’t afford to miss a single class or else I will struggle for final later. The lesson from the previous semester hit me hard, I’m not as good as what I think of myself.

And so, I made it until the last slot of the day. Most of my friends skipped that, it is just a boring class about do math using computer. God knows in the end, the lecturer had to cancel the class due to some bloody fool occupied the lecture hall without earlier notice. If I knew this will happen earlier, I would have followed my friends’ car back to hostel. And now I’m the only one left, no other way but to walk back alone even though my friend offered to come and fetch me. (It’s too troublesome for him so I turned the offer down)

p/s: morale of the story, probably we can skip some class in the future under certain circumstances for our own good sake =X

Did I ever mention to you guys bout how insecure for the area around my hostel? The highest record till now is 2 snatch-n-run cases in a single day. Uni student always their target, so imagine how worrying was the idea for me to walk back all by myself in the evening which is the peak hour for the occurrence of such case.

I still didn’t get to rest after I got back to hostel. More and more stuffs waiting for me. I’ve to work throughout the night with my colleagues for upcoming projects. When we finally decided to call it off as a day, it was almost one o’clock in the morning. They still didn’t want to let me off, but instead dragged me along for a so call supper at a place known as kampong baru. We had western cuisine, quite a heavy ‘supper’ for me though. For me, the food there isn’t that nice, but I will give a thumb up for the fruit juices over there, it is so refreshing especially after the hard day I had, and also one of the best I ever had with a great amount of choices.

And the highlight of the night just about to come, as we were on our way back to hostel, one of the car skidded and banged the divider of the road. The driver n passengers were stunned. Things just ain't as easy as I described here, but I just couldn't find appropriate words for the accident. We tried so hard to get the car back on road so that we could drove it back to hostel for help. But the damage done was far too serious and the car just couldn’t move at all. As the result, we have to accompany the driver until 7.30 in the morning until her car got towed to the factory.

Officially 24 hours without rest and sleeping.


Friday (7th of March)
God knows how tired was I, however as soon as I got back to hostel, I still had to head straight to office finish up my incomplete tasks. It took me couple of hours to finish them before the time for my next appointment. It was a date with couple of friends. I have to meet them at sungai wang 12 o’clock in the noon. I was so worn-out and may collapse for any moment but still turn up for it. I think it is important for me to keep my words and maintain my credibility before they are going to nag me for it.

We had lunch at Esquire that day. Any 8 fellas interested of having lunch or probably dinner? I think they still have this promotion going on. With just 10 bucks each we can have a meal of 7 dishes and a soup. It is quite cheap and reasonable for the food over there I guess. After the lunch, 1st time in my life ever, we went for karaoke in the afternoon. Guess what, I just had this argue with one of them the night before about sing k is so expensive yet still one of the most popular and important activity among us even though not all like it very much. Some one(i guess u know who) even rushed off her assignment purposely just to join in the fun. LOLZ~~

After that, we headed back to cheras to pick up some others before we hit the road to Klang? Are you going to ask, for what? I say it is for our lovely cruise trip. :-) And another 1st in my life time experience, I went onboard of a cruise. For more information about the trip, please refer here. I’m just too lazy to go through the details again. =X

Nothing much we can do onboard though, or I mean not much activity (or more precisely ‘free’ activity) we can do. But still with this group of people, joy and laughter never ends. It annoyed the other passengers around but they are ignorant bout that. (At one point, even the friends of friend of mine couldn’t ‘tahan’ with us.)

In short throughout the whole cruise trip, we eat, play, eat, gamble and eat.
Yes!! You didn’t see it wrongly. Without SLEEP again!! And until the time we get off deck it is officially 48 hours continuous for me without sleeping. Argh~~~~~
And sorry to say, as soon as I got into the car to go back to our beloved gathering spot, I blacked out. Just couldn’t stand it anymore.


Saturday (8th of March)
At last it is time for me to catch up some good and sound sleep. We slept through the whole morning until afternoon. And when every one had gotten themselves ready for some food, it was already dinner time. I guess if they don’t have to take food they won’t even bother to make it for the dinner. Although it was just a simple one but good enough to fill up every one on the table and we also did some shopping at jusco after that.

Due to the Election Day, every one agreed not to go out that night. We all headed back to the place for lamy(cards game). Rumors bout riot swept the town days before. Every one got call from family just to remind not to go out if possible for our own safety.

The result of general election that night was surprising. Not many had foreseen the outcome in such a way. It was described as the worst ‘victory’ ever for the ruling parties. On top of that, I was surprised to find out some of us actually quite concern bout the politics of the country.

As for the night, it was the ‘open-heart’ session as demanded. Some one revealed a lot bout Mr.‘Morning and Nite’. But sad thing is I missed out a big portion bout that since I was fast-asleep to recharge used energy for the past few days. Any one would like to fill me up with this bit? =X
Not to mention there’re disturbances throughout the night to make sure every one stay awake to get questioned. ROFL~~

It was a memorable and fruitful weekend I suppose. Even though I couldn’t make it back home which I suppose to and couldn’t get changed as frequent due to insufficient clothing. But one thing for sure is I had fun. Despite how tiring it is, I am glad that I was there for those precious times in my life. Thanks to those who make this up. And I'm looking forward for another fun yet relaxing time like this.

LoM = Level of Mongness

I know I have to post this up as soon as possible b4 sum 'devil' gonna nag me till deaf for it.

Can’t belif tat it juz happen to most the frens ard me. N to those main characters of the following post of mine, sry to say, I did this bcoz I was forced by sum unseen power of darkness. Muahahaha. A group of more evil devils(u know who)standing at my bak smirking juz to make sure I will post this. U muz belif in me since i'm an angel wannabe devil. Lolz.

The disease of mongness seems like infectious. Starting from 1 n now it spread widely among the group. Is this normal or we r juz making big fuss bout it n taking the matter so seriously? We have been discussing for weeks to evaluate the significance level of mongness among our frens. N we(wif me being forced to do this) hope wif this post we will have a good start n develop a wholesome system. It is fair n square (dun ya think so?) since every 1 can judge on it.

Here comes the main intention i'm posting this, our main characters of the day(or mayb week or even month since we r not going to meet each other for quite a long time i think). Not to mention their name n I’ll juz use sum nice substitutes, E n L?

The story begins rite after our brunch yesterday. Brunch again? Ah yes, for this group of frens I’m hanging out wif, it seems like a normal phenomena since there’re 2 賴床豬 who claim it is normal to sleep until 12 noon. N rite after the last meal we had together wif the group of frens who joined the cruise trip (except for V) ,2 of the them have to rush off to meet up wif family at kl area n another 1 for his works.

N here comes the 1st case, after E took his bath, he realize tat he lost his wallet. Ahem. N I dun quite sure wat happen next but lucky thing he still manage to get it bak later. But the moment he knew bout losing his wallet it seems so funny, every 1 is teasing him for being the 1st time actually left sumthing bhind especially sum r taking advantage to revenge on him. LOLZ~~ too many enemy i guess.

N the whole afternoon is so relaxing, wif juz the 4 of us left, we played card all the time until we finally went out for movie n dinner. L is checking so hard to make sure everything is in b4 we left our beloved gathering spot (but still almost left one piece of cloth bhind b4 sum 1 remind her bout it)
N thx to the gals we had discounted movie ticket n sushi king for tat nite. *Details for them coming up next.* Right after all those activity, we headed bak home.

When we reach L’s place, she juz got off the car n waved to us b4 we hit the road heading towards our next destination. Moments later, we got called n we still wondering how come she missed us this much(not separable even for a single sec?), but only found out tat she left her luggage in the boot/trunk of the car. Yes, another time. Every 1 in the car laugh their ass off n evil planning of posting this up came up right after tat. I do think she need a nanny to take care of her things whenever she is going out wif us. Any volunteer?

All her effort to make sure not to miss anything seems to b another failure, n she actually claimed tat she was being cursed (whenever she hanged out wif us, definitely she will leave sumthing) n I belif most of our frens knew bout which lovely mong queen am i talking bout right now. =X (if u still dun then i belif u r another member inside the mong family as well) She even threated us wif no fren ‘do’ if we post this up. Muahaha. But juz too bad I’m a devil n dun give a damn bout it. ROFL~~~~~

For those who r interested of wat happen in detail for the past weekend, pls stay tuned until I’m free to post sumthing else up.

p/s:details n comments about both the incidents above r welcome to make sure it is not a subjective point of view. n who knows how interesting it will end up to b :)
To those who din join for 10,000 b.c, it is another thumbs up movie for me even though sum commented it is quite similar to 300. (both movie wif numbers in titles?n as well similar scene?coincidence or plagiarism?LOLZ)

Work More Sleep Less

I read this article sum days ago n decided to share this, but was unable to do so until now. Sry for keeping this. ^^

For those who r practicing sleep less habit, pls take a serious look to this.

Many Americans are working more and sleeping less which could have an impact on their professional and personal lives. A new survey by the National Sleep Foundation shows people are spending an average of 4.5 hours each week doing additional work from home, on top of a 9.5 hour average work day.

While 28 percent of people questioned in the survey said their daytime sleepiness interferes with their daily activities at least a few days a month, 63 percent said they are likely to accept their sleepiness and keep going.

"There's enough data now to clearly show that if you're not sleeping enough, that's going to dramatically affect your performance and productivity," said Mark Rosekind, a former director of the Center for Human Sleep Research at the Stanford University Sleep Center who helped design the poll. "People think if I can jam more hours in the day I'll get more done. That's not true," he added in an interview.

Nearly one third of the 1,000 people who took part in the telephone poll late last year said they fell asleep or were tired on the job in the past month, and 12 percent reported being late to work.

Rosekind said estimates of what an overtired workforce costs the economy have put it at between $50 and $130 billion each year due to lost job productivity, accidents, injuries and medical conditions. He added that most people will rate themselves as being wide awake and performing at a good level but "when you measure them they're horrible."

The poll also showed that lack of sleep is affecting people's safety. Nearly 40 percent of people report nodding off or falling asleep while driving and 14 percent missed family events, work functions and leisure activities.

Almost one in four of those questioned admitted doing job-related work in the hour before going to bed at least a few nights each week, so it's no surprise that 20 percent are having less sex because they are too tired.

"It does take a physical toll and a mental toll and a toll on my work when I can't sleep. They do feed each other. If I could change one thing in my life it would be to be able to sleep."

I know there r plenty of u out there taking this matter lightly so i think i must share this wif u.
Sleeping less not only affect urself and ur perfomance,but might as well doing harm to others especially those ard u. So pls take good care of urself n sleep well ^^

Choices To B Made??

The road not taken? Sounds familiar? Wat come across ur mind when u read bout this term?

It seems like every 1 have to make their choice everyday,everywhere. N different choices will eventually lead to a different set of choices await. Which in turn means tat we have to sacrifice sum other things as well.

I keep flashing bak those important 1 tat I’ve made in the past tis few day. It seems for me tat I should have made a better choice for most of the time. Probably these slight changes tat i 'should' do will turn my lifes upside down totally.

N yet no 1 can ever said tat u had made a right or wrong choice. No juz because most of them are in the middle of 灰色地帶, but as well wat right do others have to say bout ur life?
So, wat to choose for?
These remind me of an email I got from my fren. The mayonnaise jar n coffee story from 1 of the philosophy lecturer. Wat u consider important in ur life? I do mean the most important 1. Urself? Family? Frens? Career? Or even money? Sum may seems vitally important for the moment but most of the time it will turn out to b wat we call illusion sum day.

Life is juz so hard sum time. Full of social pressure. Most of the human being live upon the others hope. It can b those come from parents, siblings, frens, or juz any 1 ard u. If u take it too seriously u will juz end up making urself suffer. Sum 1 told me b4
人生都是一步一脚印慢慢拼凑而成的，如果你觉得辛苦，那你应该感到庆幸，至少你还能努力，因为在上一分钟就已經有许多的人失去了踏步的权利。
N i myself felt so glad tat i still have the chance to choose, at least the decision is still in my hands. It sent me a jolt wif the thought of not being able to make choices for myself.

But another question pop up, how long would it lasts? Say couple of years more? or decades?
Who knows n it is left upon those who in charge to decide, not gonna trouble myself wif all tat bugging thought.

DINNER? Way up high in the sky~~!!

I juz came across this today n thinking of sharing it.

Any one interested in having a unique dining experience. You can have breakfast, lunch, dinner or cocktail or invite your boss for a meeting while enjoying your meal. It provides 22 seating complete with Chef, server, musician and you can select your own location without limitation. This restaurant is in Belgium.





Then i guess sum might b wondering, juz a restaurant in belgium? wat is so unique bout it then?



50 meters above ground dining event arranged by a professional event arranger of Benji Fun company. Ok, so it is up in the sky, and so wat? We oso have Seri Angkasa, the revolving sky restaurant at kl tower in Malaysia. Wat for have to go all the way to Belgium then?



Guarantee safety with the hoisting crane which can accommodate the whole band of musician, or making an automobile presentation to your customers.

Crane? Only? Yes!! Lolz~~ C for urself.





N i can even imagine myself shivering up there. Juz wonder how those ppl can enjoy such an activity or even come up wif the idea. Any 1 interested? Probably this is juz another good option for our coming 8 years trip waiting list, dun ya think so? Btw, this could b a good challenge for those frens of us who is having 'acrophobia' as well i think. Lolz~~

^Friendship^ Philosopher's Points of View

Had written several posts but couldn't find appropriate time to post it up. However this article really caught my eye, despite the number of my friends discuss the issue of friendship in their blog, think tat i should contribute some idea as well.

One way to construe the question of the value of friendship is in terms of the individual considering whether to be (or continue to be) engaged in a friendship: why should I invest considerable time, energy, and resources in a friend rather than in myself?

Sum claims that friendship is “life enhancing” in that it makes us “feel more alive”—it enhances our activities by intensifying our absorption in them and hence the pleasure we get out of them. Friendship is pleasant in itself as well as useful to the friends, it helps promote self-esteem, which is good both instrumentally and for its own sake.

Living well requires that one know the goodness of one's own life; however, given the perpetual possibility of self-deception, one is able accurately to evaluate one's own life only through friendship, in which one's friend acts as a kind of mirror of one's self. Hence, a flourishing life is possible only through the epistemic access friendship provides.

The sort of shared activity characteristic of friendship is essential to one's being able engage in the sort of activities characteristic of living well “continuously” and “with pleasure and interest”. Such activities include moral and intellectual activities, activities in which it is often difficult to sustain interest without being tempted to act otherwise.

Friendship, and the shared values and shared activities it essentially involves, is needed to reinforce our intellectual and practical understanding of such activities as worthwhile in spite of their difficulty and the ever present possibility that our interest in pursuing them will flag. Consequently, the shared activity of friendship is partly constitutive of human flourishing.